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Give me one reason to be proud to be a Kenyan!

Days like these (random thoughts)

I don't know about you
But being kenyan nowadays is not really a source of pride,
for me Namatsi,
Most times I ask myself... what is there to be proud of?
Our culture? Really? Who is still passing it on to his kids?
Our Music? Really? who is teaching their children how to break a leg the isukuti way... even schools stopped this this
Now it in with the talent shows mainly the dance competitions... who stays on the stage na nani aende home
Trust me I have seen parents play nothing-else but ragga in homes!
and I have no problem with that type of music...
its us I have a problem with us... just consuming everything
Our wealth? What wealth... some idiots even sold the lions of Tsavo to the USA
Most times I ask myself... what is there to be proud of?
The big five? Really? Lions and elephants are facing extinction within the next 20years...
or we will only rejoice that we once had the kings and lords of the forest walking on our land
The people? Real…

I never picked Poetry! She chose Me!

If there is one thing life has taught me it is the beauty in surprise, and daily I am surprised, from every person who comes into my life. I am more so moved by poets who first love poetry more than fame or money because those are the people who are true to its cause, as they grow it grows with them. So learn to love your art, learn it well, learn how to perfect it each day, learn how to speak each word clearly and to pass a message. Learn how to perform, when to cry when to smile and learn from whom, when and where to ask for help. Learn your art! Then it will give back.

I am actually one of those people who got into poetry out of being pushed by friends and my mother… I always wrote, can’t really remember when I started writing (and not just writing my writing for fun; my inshas were pinned on the school notice board in primary school). With a lecturer for a father, I had to do 5 mathematical sums, a one paged insha and composition per day. Which he used to mark! I was never good …

I don't blame you

I don't blame you at all,
This is the life you have been used to
How dare I teach an old dog a new trick!
'Do it on your own, no one helped me'
You sing even before you pick my call!
But wake up and see that the world has changed
I am grown, so I really don't need you to hold my hand
You should be more than blood binding but an inspiration
Does that have a price!
But then, I remember that you do not owe me anything

I don't blame you at all
How can I
I just wonder... Is it okay that you were just a whisper
Because i see other families tight
And standing in the gap for each other
But I am guessing that you already did your part
And I should stop this nonsense
But sometimes a girl like me
just wants you to pat her back and say you are proud
But your pride wouldn't let you will it?

I don't blame you at all
Mum asked me to stop
She prays for you... I don't
Now I look at the mirror and pray that I do not become like you
My heart just hardened
I just hope…

The rhyme in this reason!!!

So now the umoinner matatus, have been suspended!
For further investigations! O! So now your are paying attention!
Excuse me Mr. big man but what is your real accusation?
Over speeding, over loading, carelessness, have I mentioned it?
Do you really care, or is your pocket empty and in need of some collections!

See, I have been on the road today and there is no difference in the situation
Pinpoint, Forward travelers, sunbird there is even Paradiso
I can give you a whole list of documentation of traffic law violations
They are breaking the same rules! Are you waiting for another devastation?
Do you really care, or is your pocket empty and in need of some collections!

And to you fellow passenger hoping to get to your destination
How many times have you asked the driver to be careful with your life!
Are you waiting to lose a limb, your loved one or your life in this stupid inattention?
Did you know that your silence in encouraging the state of this condition
Yes, there is no reason in…

We are one

My heart just broke into a thousand pieces
Because of the images I have seen of my fellow brothers and sisters crying in pain,
I have felt the pain each bullet brought before our loved ones left us,
I feel sad for my county in this moment of darkness
I feel sad for all the families whose members have passed on
I feel the pain of the injured victims
We are one
You hurt and I hurt

My spirit is weak but my soul encouraged
As I celebrate each hero/heroine... who queued to donate blood
Each hero/heroine who sent in donations in cash and kind
Each hero/heroine who stood in prayer and who comforted us all
I must mention the bravery, amid looming fear, of our police and military
You guys are heroes
I am grateful to the journalists courageous enough to show us the suffering of the victims
I thank our leaders for standing together because we are one
You hurt and I hurt

I do not have rights to the following pictures taken by (Guram Tumasevic of Reuters and Tyler Hicks of the New-york times), …

Free

Goodbye is the saddest thing to say,
I realize now!
Knowing that things will never be as they were,
We will never sit and laugh as we did
I will never comb your hair or feel your skin as I did...
Though we pretend that we are cool
You will not tickle or hold me as you did...
Though we pretend that nothing is changed
And no, we will not play as we did
So can we stop this pretense game...
We really have no one to please...
It just hurts
The silence

Goodbye is the saddest thing to say
Mama said that some relationships were not built to last but to learn from
I cried that day
We were thicker than blood… we were oil
I really cried
Once I thought that only sticks and bones would make me bleed
But my heart shattered when you said those words
You were more than a friend, closer than a sister
And I am still picking up the parts
So can we stop this pretense game...
We really have no one to please...
It just hurts
The silence

Goodbye is the saddest thing to say
I have to say how much I ha…

Kesho

Nimeona niwache kucheza na moto
Nitaangamia bure kwa joto
Kutazama mvunguni nikitamani chako
Nikujichosha bure tako...
Langu laja kesho

Elewa dunia ni duara
Aliye chini kesho hupanda
wajiona simba, waniona mwiba
Nguvu zangu wazipima, unasahau nadunga!
Kesho langu laja

© Namatsi Lukoye

Can you Handle this?

There is something strange about your eyes...
They pull me too much: and I really like the stare
That dirty little look! like you know what I am thinking
Something irresistible about your voice or is it your lips?
What more can they do... I wonder!

There is something sweet about your cologne or is it your charm?
Something about the shape of your fingers and how short your nails are.
Yes! something is turning the queen on:
When you stretch your hands for a simple handshake!
I wonder what they could do when you decide to play!
Or just how warm your body must feel
There is something about you, that turns on!

So when I walk in front of you with a swing,
or drop a pen just in front of you,
Do you get it?
All these thoughts playing in my head! utaziweza kweli?

© Namatsi Lukoye

Random Thoughts...

What is there to laugh about on a bodaboda?
What is there to cry about in a Range Rover?
Loving someone is the craziest thing in the world
Crazy beautiful, for the lucky few
Crazy ugly, for the people who are lost…
Love has chains that can bind and pull one to any direction

I have seen it all
In her eyes... when they exchanged their vows on their wedding day
I have seen it all
In his tears… each time he hit her and cried sorry
I have heard it all
In her prayers when he is out on his ‘ business trip’
I have seen it in his efforts
So that she may have some food to eat!
But there are so many broken promises between us nowadays
That makes me wonder… Does love really exist?

Where there is no money, how can there be love?!!!
And where is this place where, I can find love?
This place I can call a comfort zone?
This love nest, where it rains money at the same time
But where the heart breaks not?
What is there to laugh about on a boda boda?
What is there to cry about in a Range Rover?
To…

Imperfect Me

Sometimes, as an artist it is scary to let people see beneath my beautiful:- for the world may discover that I am not any where close to perfect! It could be shocked at the things that make me, me. I feel like the ones who know me and those who have fallen in love with my art before they do, judge me differently. Sometimes I am scared that my fans might think that I am totally pretentious! That while I amaze others, I disgust others.

Well most times it is difficult to live in two worlds; one as this role model (hero) who can sing like a bird, write to so well or dance like angel; while the other a human carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders. I am on a journey to find myself; I am blessed to have people float and swim in my words, it is a blessing to have people want to be like me, want to write like me and want to live like me! It is scary. Sometimes the more people look up to me the more I get lost and forget how to get back to being myself. I am only human!


I should le…

Poetry Under the stars

Traveling always sets the spirit free.Poetry on the other hand is the heaven souls run to get comfort.

Poetry under the stars is an overnight poetry event scheduled for 27th July 2013. The event hosted by Poetry under the stars, Kenyan Poets Lounge and a few other stakeholders will be at Cray Fish Camp, Naivasha. Tickets are going for 500/-. The event is speculated to be the biggest poetry event this year, and I will be performing.


© Namatsi Lukoye

Queen

There is a queen inside me:
Yearning to shine
Queen Makeda of Sheba
is deep inside me
Comfortable in her skin, size and shape
Needs no assuring…
She knows she is it


Past Make the up
her beauty is skin deep
It’s her light
the spark in her eyes
It’s her heart
the warmth it has
It’s her feet
they strength they have
That makes her stand as the world shakes


Nzingha…
queen of Matamba
It’s her might
oh she is a mountain
A flowing river that souls confide in
Jaber
it’s the confidence in her stride


Tiye the Nubian queen
Black, beautiful, gorgeous… and shaped with pride
A master in the home and a slave for love
She is a winner of hearts, this queen inside
There is a queen inside me
I need to find
Because I want to be her



There is a queen inside me

Of charm and worth
Cleopatra, Beauty doesn’t come close
Perfectly designed from a golden rib
She takes no less, no compromise
She knows her place and rules it right
It’s her uniqueness that makes them bow


Amina Queen of Zaria
She is proud to be different
Beyond doubt she is reaso…

Blown Away

The gods have decided to blow me away
They have blocked all the light rays
All I can do is remain in this fray
Rest my soul, let’s not make a scene
Tomorrows mercies shall carry us home


© Namatsi Lukoye

The last tear just fell

The last tear just fell from my eyes
Not because people at funerals get to laugh too
But because I am done with mourning
And I feel the hairs on my bald scalp sprouting up
So I know that I got it in me to live past this
Like a woman recovering from Cancer, I cannot hide my joy

The last tear just fell from my eyes
This is me smiling, as if the storm never wash away my house
This is me laughing, as if I know where I will sleep tonight
I am still breathing, I figure
I feel that divine comfort that comes with grace
Deep within this very heart, I feel his embrace
In my confusion, with all my questions
I at least I never forgot where to run to

The last tear just fell from my eyes
I stopped dancing to war songs, blood shouldn’t inspire me
I stopped dancing and playing with knives, pills and poison
Upon killer winds and waves
In wilderness and when when hope runs away
When all I see if fear
Lord, you have walked with me
I know people like me are not fair to you
Bending our knees only when w…

Hate is a kiss away when the heart breaks

I killed a man
I ripped out his heart and tossed it in the flames
For the lies he fed me

I killed a man
I dried up his spirit
For the tears he stole every night

I killed a man
I walked away with his soul
For the monster he turned me into

I figured
Why should he breathe, while my corpse roams the world?
I loved him with all my heart
I guess hate is a kiss away when the heart breaks

© Namatsi Lukoye

Heart like mine!

I believe in a perfect world
In blue skies and green fields
I believe in love, unconditional and true
The kind of love that exists in fairy tales
Love hard to find days like this where angels drown in the wind they fly in
Because the air is pregnant with tricks and betrayals and hurt
These new molecules burn the lungs and rip the heart!

I live in a perfect world
I believe in truth, however bitter
Like a cure it sets my soul free
So these lies, in this maze! I fail to figure out
Still planted in a devils workshop
I am too trusting! Too open! Too good
Of all the times I have been burnt you would think I would learn
Yet I remain to be the hurt fool!

I live in a perfect world
Where friends are friends and enemies remain enemies
There is no disgusting hypocrisy!
Humanity sometimes deserves a second, third, fourth and tenth chance
That sometimes I ask myself, whose mercy are we really at?
Far we have fallen from what is good
Few give me hope
I believe in hearts like Mandelas, in forgiv…

That Person

I will find you,
Like the sun runs after the sky each day around the world,
I will.
So when they ask and make you doubt, turn around,
You will see me behind the darkness,
I swear.

Like stars keep the moon company
when it’s having its days of breaking down,
I will stand by you firm and strong.
So when the hurricane rises up to engulf, baby I will be the wind fighting it to stop,
I will be there,
Trust me.

I will wait for you,
Like graves wait for us all,
I will.
As each day passes by, the closer you will get,
Believe me

Like a child’s prayer his mothers lips,
I will protect you,
When you feel like giving up,
I will believe in you, I heard that it has its own power

You should know,
That for you I will,
Because I am that person.

So I ask you,
To be that person too.

© Namatsi Lukoye



To days is worlds poets day:- I just felt the need to write

AWAKENING FEMININO 23rd March

A woman shares a thousand things with the cat. One of them is the ability to lie down stretched on the sofa, purring softly. But that is just about it – because you never know what is going on in the cat’s (woman’s) mind.

How can you know about the woman – her world, her wildest fantasies, her relationship with her handbag, her God, and her number one enemy (or is it friend?) the man?

You can do two things; ask the cat or ask the woman.

AwakeningKenya (Awakening.or.ke) sponsored by Safaricom Kenya brings together six performers, who have been performing on poetry, tales and music. They are Namatsi Lukoye, Sitawa Wafula, Wanjiku Mwaura, Carol Njenga, Emylee and Jannet Mumo.

Backed by one of the Afro-fusion thrillers Lele Ngoma, they will be at the refurbished Michael Joseph Centre, at Safaricom House talking to men while they compare notes with other tens of women set to attend the show. The event will be emceed by the Slam Champion Wanjiku Mwaurah.

The organizer and brains after the …

FESTIVAL CULTURELLE 2013

It was an honour performing at the Alliance Française Nairobi on the 12th of March 2013. In Celebration of Women, The evening started with Sherry Horman's movie The Desert Flower; a true story about Supermodel Waris Dirie who escaped childhood nightmare in Somalia and became a global supermodel.

The performance was a taste of the SO-EMs in the upcoming album Nirvana, originally done alongside the band JKD and Valary. Since the show was about celebrating female local artists, I was joined by Valary Mdeizi, Pauline Ayuko, and Louisa Mutero. JKD's Charles Murage as usual played the guitar.



It was day worth remembering especially it being my first Solo Show. The journey of 1000 miles starts with one step and this is one of those steps!



I also have to add; that I will do my best to make this album remarkable.

© Namatsi Lukoye
Pictures by Koa-Media

The Commercialization of Poetry – Spoken Word Poetry

It is important to note that in the light of trying to do something, it is impossible to escape the trap of trying to be someone. At the end of the day, it is human nature to want to be recognized and if possible appreciated.

The word commercial in Word based art does not encompass only the art’s structure; it is in the presentation/packaging (whether in books or on a stage), and a marketing strategy will enable the artist/poet to pull in EFFORTS directed at attracting a profit. These EFFORTS need money. So has poetry been commercialized? Well has it been scribbled on trees or on stone tablets for all who pass by to read or listen to it for free? Kindly take note: - that nothing is free in this world there is always a need to be satisfied.

However, learning from experience, I will not advice anyone with weak finances and with no sponsorship to organize an Open Mic Event; because organizing such an event takes so much than one can imagine. All in all both the organizers and artists s…

The Vision of Her

Funny thing happened this morning…
I felt as if I had died, when I woke up
It was like I was a corpse moving around the living
Like I was not felt but I was missed instead

Funny thing happened to me this morning
I felt the world inhale me
Pull me up its nostrils and ingest me in its lungs
Slaps of fresh storms winds,
I cheat you not; I could not breathe nor turn
I felt my flesh rip out of my bones,
And my bones chip away to expose my soul
I felt no pain, just calm instead

Funny thing happened to me this morning
I knew that I had gone,
But I felt safe somehow… when I saw her vividly like a mist
Funny thing happened to me this morning
I saw HOPE, as all I knew collapsed
She lay lifeless deep in the darkness she was plunged…
Funny thing happened to me this morning
I knew that I could not give up
I was not scared, just brave instead

© Namatsi Lukoye

DREAMS

The great samurai held his might sword
Tongue,
Within a minute he sliced my confidence with it
His words
And I was lost in a forest, couldn’t find a chord to hold me up
So I let him score! Again and again
I would hide in corners dark, hoping that his light would not burn my eyes
I couldn’t imagine my shadow meeting his…
You would think that he was a god! His actions shook me down to the marrow!
With just an action, the streets would be red! Chaotic
But my siblings loved him!

The great warrior held his mighty spear
Greed,
From the way he walked, it was clear that he ruled the sphere
Children looked up to him, for a future he did not envision
For him, pain was not pain until it was severe
And I am not talking about bullet holes or acid burns pains!
Much worse! Grief! Like losing the person you love over and over again
He loved the smell of tears; they designed his cologne
He swam in blood and sweat
And wore the skin of other men in the biting cold

The vulture perched on the weak br…

I want to strip for you

I want to strip for you!
There is a way you make me feel, when you stare at me like that
There is a chill you send down my spine, when I feel that you want me like that
There is a way you light up fireworks, which break me down to what they call blush*
There is a way you play in my thoughts as I dress up in my two piece suit
There is a way you inspire me to: - strip, for you

So I am sexting you… because thoughts of you still make me wet
I love this place… it is called comfort zone
After all this year’s … you still give me that look
I love this place… it is called comfort zone

I want to wine slowly for you
There is way this music fills the air with pleasures of sex
I touch myself to thoughts of you and they still take me to heaven!
There is a time I learnt a dance, just to show you
There is way I want to move, slowly and cautiously
So you can feel the smoothness and tightness of my skin
You make me feel perfect, in my body and shape!
I want to wine slowly for you

So I am sexting yo…

Little woman

I pity you,
Little woman
I see you running down the streets
I see you know the wonders of make up
Are you flaunting or hiding something?
I see you in your short tight skirt, a purse in your hands
trying to run in your little high heeled shoes
I can't imagine how your little hands massage your ankles at the end of the day
Or what pedophiles think when you pass by with your mothers perfume on
I pity you
Little woman

I feel for you
Little lover
Exposed to all the secrets of pleasure
Past kissing
You let boys and men touch your growing breasts and finger fuck you in corners dark
Dirty nails, sweaty backs and on muddy grass
So you find it cool
to be called someones girl-friend
I feel for you
Little lover

I forgive you
Little girl
Disrespecting your mother... saying that 'dad could have done better!
Don't you know you have her eyes, her legs and her smile
Don't you know that she let you suck on her nipple even after you bit her!
That your cry brought her running to you
I f…